It was a lie. I had lied. I said I would try. I tried. I failed.
And it’s hard to say “I lied” when you do it again and again and again. It’s like you’re always making the same mistake and then, one day at a time, you realize you’re the same person you always were.
I used to hate this line of thinking. I used to feel like I would lie on every application for every job I ever interviewed for. I would write it all down and mark it. I would make a list of all the jobs I applied for and I would think about a time when I had been interviewed for a job and realized that I had never lied on the application.
No such thing as a lie, but a lie is a lie. I guess I just didn’t like the thought of the whole line of thinking. In the end, I made a list of jobs that I had spent the last couple of months of my life, but it didn’t work out.
To be fair, I have to admit I was hoping that I would get a job that would make me feel better about it. But then when I was asked about my dream job at a news site and she answered, “Really?”, I thought, “Damn.”I started writing all the jobs I could think of (in other words, I didn’t want to be a journalist).
But you can’t really lie on your resume. It doesn’t count as a truth. So why do people lie on their resumes? Because it’s a way to get things done. It’s a way for someone to show you they are intelligent and competent, and you arent smart and competent enough to get things done. I know I have been guilty of doing this all my life. I am ashamed of it.
When I was a kid I would sit at home and read a book, because I was a student. But I also read a lot of books. So I started doing other things. I would write a book. I did some other things. I would write a song. I would write a book. I would read a book. I would read a book. All of a sudden I came up with this whole weird story. I think I was in the middle of it.
Okay, but just imagine your boss telling you that you have been working on your book for a month, and at the end of that month you tell him you have written six pages. He says, “Well I have never seen six pages.
That’s how my boss perceived my work. He thought I was a slow writer. I didn’t tell him I wrote six pages just so he would believe me.